Holy shittttttt.
My insomnia is back to haunt me. Maybe, maybe, and MAYBE ONLY I deserve for sleeping at the most random of times these past few days of holidays.
Now the maximum time I can sleep is 4 hours.
And I used to be able to sleep for 16 hours straight.
I am so bloody sleepy but my mind is sooooo active due to the fact that I sleep a lot, just not long enough. Okay I'm not really making sense but I'm ranting here, and rants aren't supposed to make sense.
Yesterday I slept at 5pm. I thought it'd be 3am in the morning or something when I woke up cause I usually sleep about 8 hours or so on a tiring day and yesterday I was as tired as fuck.
Turns out I woke up at 7pm. wtf.
And so I randomly walked around,
played rubik's cube,
baked green tea sponge cake (that failed cause it required the whiping of FIVE eggs until stiff. And y'know, my hand's weak and plus the egg rise so much it was almost spilling out of the bowl.),
find weird recipes to waste my green tea powder on,
and just walked everywhere like a bloody ghost.
And by 3am I wasn't tired enough to sleep. I swore it felt like my mind was overdosing like Heath Ledger.
And so I did one of the most tedious things on the face of the earth. I washed my hair, TWICE.
And conditioned.
And towel dry lightly.
And then bothered to blow dry it. WITH COLD AIR OPTION.
And by then it was 4am. -__- My brain died man. I was just staring at the ceiling for like half an hour and then I was like "FUCK IT!"
So I watched Pushing Daisies on PPS. I like Pushing Daisies. The pies look yummy.
That reminds me, I need to make pies. Maybe I'll make green tea cookies tonight? My oven has totally been working overtime this holiday, especially with my insomnia.
And like bloody hell I only slept at 9am today and then woke up at 12 noon. And I haven't slept since.
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(activated the chinese thingo midway ftw. -_-)
GAH IM GONNA DIE IF I DON'T GET SOME SLEEP.
D8 I'm not making sense anymore. Fuck it I'm gonna swallow some panadol to knock myself out.
f-f-fuckkk
...about utube
Go watch Shane Dawson! (link) NOWWW.
I love the fact that's he's so open to cussing. I loooveee people who cuss sometimes (when exaggerating and needed only and not 24/7 like some idiot ah beng) cause people that cuss are usually more open minded and shiz.
Well anyways, he's hilarious. And I think he's better than Nigahiga, recently anyways. Nigahiga's running outta ideas and most other people on youtube are either still boring or I just don't get them.
...like WhatTheBuck. (link) What the fuck is WhatTheBuck saying sometimes? He goes so fast like C.S. Wong that I just stare and don't even have time to register what he's going at.
...and Smosh. (link) WTH MAN I EITHER DON'T GET YOUR JOKES OR THEY JUST AREN'T FUNNY. D<
...NigaHiga's (link) video quality is starting to fuck up. What the heck happened to his old camera?!
and most of all... FRED. (link) JUST STFU PLS. Your voice makes me want to kill a cat.
oh god.
My life is a fucking mess. I do not know what the hell is happening to me but my inspiration, my motivation, my every piece of shit-fucking-will-to-live is absolutely gone.
I may not seem any different in my daily life but god my life is so messy now. I haven't done homework, studying, cleaning and bothering for ages.
I usually always get shit from my hypocritical family but maybe they've just gone too far. I've lost all motivation to care.
I need a holiday and I hope next week passes in a hurry. I desperately need some time to settle my thoughts and get on with my life.
“Life is thickly sown with thorns, and I know no other remedy than to pass quickly through them. The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us.”
-Voltaire
And so, to quickly pass my bloody misfortunes, I will. Fuck this shit. I WILL rearrange my life.
Life Goal
Before I die or become too old to bake, I will, WILL, WILL bake a Matcha, Lemon and Chocolate Opera cake.
Consisting of 5 parts, taking about a whole day to make and absolute hell for me. ='(
But mark my words, I will make you one day.
Recipe and photos from here. (Click it please. The baker is awesome. She could make your tummy grumble in 5 seconds.)
=D
Screw my vegan diet. Nothing gets in between my baking and me.
... Okay maybe not exactly screw it but I'll give myself 1 day of non-vegan-ness.
I used only 1 egg and 80grams of butter! Considerably less than most recipes!
Cakes require more animal killing and this is why I choose bread instead of cakes.
I made wholemeal banana, raisin and honey cinnamon rolls! And the best part was when I could see the honey dripping out of the rolls. *drools*
It took me an hour to knead the dough though cause it's my official first time baking bread without much help at all. (And instructions shouted at me by my mom is not counted. -_- )
Sad part is that after all the work I only made.... 12 rolls. And they turn stale within a day. Now that is sad.
Hope they turn out well though. They're still getting baked and rising beautifully in the oven. 8D
*And after they got out of the oven...*
They're so awesome that I don't mind that I wasted 3 hours on them! <3
Since they're fresh so they're crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. It isn't too sweet with means it's kinda healthy, and the banana and raisins make them sweet naturally.
Cakes can eat my shit (for now), I found a new love in bread.