=)

I hate living on the other side of Penang far from the malls and the bustling city life but...

Oh the sea breeze smells like heaven~!

When you close your eyes you could almost, almost, ALMOST! feel as if you're just 1 feet away from the ocean.
And the scent doesn't get mingled with air pollution or anything else. No noise pollution either.

Just the breeze.
And you.



One of the very few reason I like it here.

I can't care to put a proper title.

Listening to : Nothing Lasts Forever by Maroon 5
Mood : A little bit confused

Take a deep breath.
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Let it out.

Nope that is not a calming exercise or CPR.
That is a sigh. A sigh of surrender.

My photoshop skills are lacking lately. Very lacking. All I've done is retouching on sheep photographs and flipping it around and make the copyrights clear again so I don't get sued.

=/

I used to be able to stay up until 5am in the morning squinting at some dumb tutorial written by an amateur to use it as inspiration.
But now at 5am in the morning I'm staring at smut 'educational subjects' and stupid videos on youtube or just mindless articles.

Is it procrastination, the thief of time? Or is it laziness? Inspiration? Anger? Sadness? Happiness? Forgetfulness?

It's true hard work never killed anybody, but I figure, why take the chance? ~Ronald Reagan

Emotions played a part in inspiring me. But emotions also play a bigger part in killing me metaphorically.


Apathy.

So that's what I'm feeling that caused me to be this way. Apathy is the state of Nirvana for some, but for people like me it's just a chore, a bad habit, a stupid emotion.

I always thought that my emotions reflect my thinking. And I always liked to imagine my flow of thinking in font types. Happy is curls, sad is Anywhere But Home, ecstatic is A Charming Font.
(Curls, Anywhere But Home and A Charming Font is all font names by the way if you didn't notice or know.)
Whenever I'm apathetic my brain thinks in Font size 10 Arial black font.
Normal. Dead. Uncaring.

Sigh.

I'm not moody or sad. I just... don't know.


I can't even care to finish this blog post......

Karangan "Terbaik" UPSR 2007

I know it's in malay and some people just tulan to read cause we see it everyday at school in almost every subject but please read. It's hilarious. xD Been circulating around the internet for some time.


Karangan budak darjah 4

Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak mahu.

Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah belakang.

Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia menjerit “Adoi!”. Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri. Feri itu terbelah dua.

Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting
Highlands dan terus ke tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu.

Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit “Adoi..!” dan jatuh ke bumi. Emak say menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi. Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat sebelum saya mati.



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xD

I wish I wrote this when I was a kid. Or maybe I did already. O_o

The 'Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu.' and ultraman part really cracked me up. xD

Fuck Screw braces.

Fuck Screw braces.

This should explain it all.

How high is your sky?

La da da da da da da da da dum
La da da da da da dum

Boy In A Rock And Roll Band - The Pierces


If only it was Summer now and I'm in front of a non polluted beach, this song would fit perfectly.
It is Summer all year round in Msia but currently it's freezing. Freezing. As in crazy strong winds that causes me not to on the air conditioning.

I would prefer the air conditioning on really. When it's on the stupid mosquitoes won't bite the blood outta me. I could cover myself under my blanket but my blanket was just washed yesterday and I hate clean blankets. Hate. I love my scent. Okay not many people may agree with this but I still love my scent. Stupid detergent.

So I can't cover myself with my blankey. ='(

And the mosquitoes are savages. Savages I tell you! Thus I only slept at 3am yesterday. And I woke up at 5am because I accidentally set my alarm an hour too early. Ha ha. It's so funny I'm twitching. -_-


Ah whatever. Not much meaning complaining now. I hate complainers anyways so no meaning to become something I hate.


Anyways, let's cut the crap. And get on with the bullshit in my life.

1. Tuitions are not arranged yet. Why does everyone tuition start at 8pm?!
2. My mom is gonna be M.I.A. until Friday.
3. My homework is starting to pile up. Very little, but yes it is. After I clean it, it just starts piling up again!
4. I still don't have my domokun pencil case yet.
5. Oh god my fangs are giving me ulcers cause I got all 4 teeth behind the fangs pulled out for my braces. Vampires are a bunch of bullshit. They wouldn't survive a day with these ulcers.
6. I want my Gossip Girl Season 2 stupid limewire. Work! (Yes I watch GG. I am guilty as charged. Shoot me if you may.)
7. I want my Sex and The City season ALL OF THEM. I need to go Batu Feringghi to get them but I don't think I'll be going there for some time. (Yes I watch Sex and the City too.)
8. I need to put some time aside to finish my 5 seasons of Nip/Tuck. I would watch it regularly but it's so damn explicit my parents would puke up their hopes of their only daughter after they see it. And my laptop's DVD player has a serious screw lose.
9. Adobe Flash Player is screwing on me. Again.
10. Everyday feels like a lousy Monday. What happened to the Fridays?


Nothing much. Just wrote this thing to let me think properly for awhile. My head's been off the ground lately.

Listening to:



=D

D=


School started and I'm a tad busy. I'm kinda happy really that I got things to do so I can unglue my ass to the bed, but I'm feeling the anxiety of pre-stress so that's kinda... frustrating I guess.

I can't really explain it in words. It's just emotions really.

Well anyways, I need to find some tuitions. It's all a big jumble now and I kinda regret not arranging it earlier but I know my faults, so don't repeat it into my ear.

I think I got Physics and Chemistry tuition sorted out now so it's pretty okay. There are a few flaws in the Physics and Chemistry tuition but I guess I have to brush it off.
Add maths tuition I think I should join 2? Just cause I'm too paranoid?
Still haven't found a decent Malay tuition not too far away yet though. Most of them in Bayan Lepas or Batu Mertajam or something. -__-
And should I take Accounts? O_o Are extra subjects a good move? What about ETS, English literature, blah blah etc etc.

*headache*

Sigh. I hope I manage to sort it all out before February. My life's very off track right now.




But I guess I still got time to be a nerd... So I need to...

Get this book!

Rant by Chuck Palahniuk




Oh wait there's another one:

Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk. It's about some death cult or something. Not sure but a lot of reviews say it's quite a good read.



I love Chuck Palahniuk's style of writing so I think I should get these.



AND OMFGASM.



=O

ohdeargoddomokunpencilcasebemine

I first saw it in New World Park's Nice Day but I was skeptical about it. And now the more I think about it, the more I love it. I found one almost like it in Prangin's Nice Day but it was FLAT so I almost bought it but Seetha talked me out of it while saying something about McDonalds.

=( It's as if I don't have a part of my soul without it.






The bag is optional but nevertheless it's still worth a 5 second OMFGASM.

原来你什么都不要

This is kinda sudden/unexpected/random but omg to think I almost waste a minute and a half watching the whole thing. (I only watch 20 seconds, front 10 seconds, back 10 seconds and I know the whole video's content.)




FAHRENHEIT SUCKS.

And the thing is... Are they even cute?! Wtf are 80% of girls aged 10-14 that know chinese BLIND DEAF AND BLIND?!

I honestly love this song and today suddenly at 4am in the morning the last line of the chorus suddenly popped into my mind and I couldn't sleep because it kept bugging me so I had to find the song.

When the song came out I think I was only about 5 and hell I didn't know a single word of chinese but I loved it. :D
And so after a few years I heard it randomly at times and I didn't know the title but I had this huge 99% correct suspicion that the title was the same as the last line in the chorus.

And I was right. (Well 1 word isn't in there but it doesn't really matter eh? I said 99% already)

And so today I finally found myself the worst version of this song.
And the best version of this song is by Jam Hsiao: (Yes I know, weird name.)




The guy's uncharismatic, shy, awkward, and seems totally geek-ish but... damn good voice. I think I melted.

Haruki Murakami

I wouldn't be surprise if people start throwing stones at me after I say this, so listen up.

I want a book. I think the cover is cute. This is the cover:


A gorgeous, big, fat, fluffy, white, cute, beautiful and naive sheep with a red star on it's side.

I don't know who is the designer/maker of the cover yet but... Oh damn you cover maker, how dare you kill us to buy a book for it's cover only.

And it's sypnosis:

"This mock-detective tale follows an unnamed Japanese man through Tokyo and Hokkaido in 1978. The passive, neurotic, chain-smoking main character gets swept away on an adventure that leads him on a hunt for a sheep that hasn’t been seen for years. The apathetic protagonist meets a woman with magically seductive ears and a strange man who dresses as a sheep and talks in slurs; in this way there are elements of Japanese animism or Shinto."


Seductive ears and dressing up as sheep...

...

Ok ok I'm buying it already! Stop persuading me with these things!



I haven't even finished the first book of Haruki Murakami's I bought. Sputnik Sweetheart. The book's kinda sad and somber in a weird way but somehow I keep flipping the pages to find a tiny little ounce of hope.

Or maybe it's just his writing style that makes it sound so lonely.


And no I didn't finish it because I'm a lazy ass, it's just because it's hard to bring out in public with a naked lady lying on white sheets on the cover, and usually I read books in public cause... I don't like public attention. Strangers make me feel neurotic. It's like I owe the whole world money or something.