Update on life and to-do list.

It is 30th of April 2008.
Birthday past 2 days ago.
Wasn't amazing or anything, but it does make me officially 15 years old.

To be totally honest, I hate birthdays. Birthdays should not exist.
In 365 of 366 days in a years, you only get appreciated specially for one day.
One day. Just one day.
I know it's selfish to think that, but aren't we all special? 1 day is all we get? For about 364 days all we get is normal treatment?

Scratch that I say, freaking scratch that. We are all special and we deserve to get more than 1 day of appreciation out of the 365 days in a year.
From now I'm gonna celebrate my Unbirthday. And yes, it's in capital and even birthdays don't get treatment cause my Unbirthdays are special!
Everyday I wake up and get a new day, a new chance to live, redo the wrongs and add to the rights I've done, a new attempt at the chances I've missed. All the oppurtunities, another day! What an amazing thing. =D How much others would just pay to have another day like me, people with cancer and all those unlucky things would pay loads just to get another day, another week, another month, another year, and somemore time.

No one's gonna acknowledge my Unbirthday, so only I'm able to give myself a present, which is... the present? Yea, the present, for today is a gift.
Everyday the stress, homework, studying, vanity, greed, all that stuff is making me forget to appreciate the simplier things, and in the end all that I really need, I already have.

If I could only maintain this mindset forever then I would totally be living such a carefree life, but that's quite impossible. So all I can do is try.

As Will Smith rapped once:
Thoughout life people will make you mad,
Disrespect you and treat you bad.
Let God deal with the things they do,
Cause hate in your heart will consume you too.
-from Just The Two Of Us

It's such a sweet line. Just thinking about it can't make me angry at anything anymore. Such, we have problems and think life isn't fair. But everyone at one point of their life will think that way. And so yeah, nothing can be changed except for us.

Maybe I've been thinking too much or something, but at least I've been thinking.


And now to my To-Do List:

1. English Oral Speech. (Deadline: 1st or 2nd week of April?
Oh my goodness, I have no ideas for a topic, so I just randomly thought of sushi...
I hope my fussy english teacher will take some interest.

2. Moral Folio. (Deadline: Friday. 2nd May)
I've written the titles, found the pictures, I just have to write out all the information.

3. Study for Mid Year Exam.
I've only:
-covered most of history,
-none at all of geography (I feel bad for this... D= ),
-maths doesn't need studying, just some revision by doing exercises,
-english just needs some studying on my literature notes,
-malay is almost like english, just extra short stories and poetry,
-I have done nothing for chinese. NOTHING,
-I have a headache with science, but I think if I start now I can understand all of it,
-KH is just... X_X Pretty easy but there's woodwork and my woodwork is still kinda... umm... not done?

4. Return Michelle's Northen Lights book (AKA Golden Compass)
It's BORING.
I thought it would be a little different from the movie (which I thought was dead crappy boring too) since it got so many praises and stuff from critics, but no, it's boring. I guess children/fantasy books aren't for me. The only children/fantasy books I can read is Alice In Wonderland, and The Grimm Brothers' stories.

5. Read more books.
And that does not include chick lits such as Gossip Girl and Meg Cabot books. I personally do not want to read too much of Gossip Girl and Meg Cabot or any other chick lit books cause they kind of affect your personality.
The main theme around Gossip Girl is BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY BACKSTABING BITCHY BITCHY BITCHY SLUTS MANWHORES. And that's the main theme. There's other side themes, but they're sidethemes, they aren't as important as the main theme. I do not want to know about the backstabbing promiscuous bitchy mind of spoilt rich kids, and actually be jealous of their fictional life, because that will just cause negative attitudes in me. (The Gossip Girl books are far better than the series by the way, the series just cuts out too much important parts) Meg Cabot is fine, but unrealistic, I think I've grown out of them. I only really liked the Mediator series.
The last un-chick lit-ey book I've read was Grosteque by Natsue Kirino, which was quite... Disturbing and sad really. It really is so sad living your life alone, and then you'll be finding ways to escape and you'll just trapped in your own little escapism world. Quite a sad read really. I'm trying to read a book call Be Yourself currently. I forgot the author's name.

6. Do homework more regularly.
Must. Not. Be. Lazy.

7. Try to keep a positive mindset and do things more positively.
I gotta stop thinking so much! You aren't what you think! You are what you do!

8. Be myself.
And to be myself is all that I can do. =)