Supernatural. Super-frustrating.

Totally random note that 99% people who read my blog will not giving a flying fuck about but....


SAM WINCHESTER YOU ARE A BLEEDING IDIOT. D<


Just finished season 4 of Supernatural and WTF. -___-

Ever been let down before by people you actually trusted?
I have. Many, many times. I think this is about the 5th time it's happened.

I'm not an unreasonable person. When someone suddenly says that something important has come up and plans before have to be changed or either not happening, I'd understand. I won't throw blame around and I'll find another way.
But when it's happened repeatedly your faith in that person just gets shattered. Especially when the plans are very important to me and those plans have taken months to arrange.

Most people will hear of my situation and just recommend me to "screw them! There's others out there that are far better!"

Okay. So how the hell do I divorce my family?

Question Of The Day :1

If you're in a conversation with a bunch of people, some of whom you are close with, some you barely know, and some absolute strangers, what is inappropriate, and what is not? O_o


Talking with a few people some time ago and was having few (note: few. Not many, not none, but moderate.) laughs. A joke was in my head but I was confused to say it or not.

IF IT WENT WELL:
1. They laugh.
2. They think my sense of humour is sick but nevertheless, funny.
3. They know I'm open-minded.
4. I'd know they're easy-going and I'll eventually grow a liking to them too.

IF IT FAILS:
1. They think I'm sick. Not in a good way too. =/
2. They think I'm the sort who is too open minded and likes to say TMI stuff to everyone I'm talking to.
3. They'll avoid me like the plague/swine-flu/H1N1.

and worst case scenario is...

4. If they're dicks and douche bags they'll spread rumours about me being the most disgusting person to ever look them in the eye and say "Toothpaste makes your dick swell!".


So yeah. To say or not to say.




RANDOM SHIT YOU DON'T NEED TO READ CAUSE IT'S BORING. YOU'RE MOST LIKELY TO CLICK THE "close tab" BUTTON DURING THE FIRST HALF OF THE PARAGRAPH ANYWAYS:

Everyone should know I'm open-minded. Like fo' srs open-minded. You could tell me you fucked a cow and impregnated it and all I would say is "Eh did you like it? Could I see your cow-human hybrid baby? 8D"

Some things I don't accept though are:

1. Racism gone too far.

I hate a few races sometimes. Actually no, let me rephrase that. I hate ALL races sometimes, even my own. Sometimes a group of people will do things in their nature that other groups hate.
Unavoidable. Get over it, fact of life. All we can do is complain and pray the other groups don't find out about it.
Ignorance = bliss.
But you know people go too far sometimes like dragging a cow's head through the streets to protest the building of an Indian temple. -___- Idiots.

2. Insulting religious people and people insulting religions (too much anyways).

This has got to be common sense. Most people don't do it but some assholes are STILL going to people's funerals and shouting "GOD HATES FAGS!".
Some religions are still topics of jokes, so be open-minded if someone's joking about them. You have the right to freak out when that person starts throwing cow/pig's blood on you.

3. Dicks. Douchebags. Assholes.

Y'know. The fuckers who keep boasting to you about their awesome 100 million dollar private jets, fucking hot Megan Fox-ish trophy wives/girlfriends, and their recent achievements.
Yeah we know you worked hard for all your achievements, but can't you see our eyes rolling yet? WE DON'T WANT TO KNOW. FUCK OFF.

I'm sorry.

Been some time since I had a heart-to-heart post. Recently all I've been doing is complaining about my problems and not analysing them. I miss the old times when my blog posts used to be choke full of emotions on problems which I faced. Whenever I used to have problems I would drown myself in half-assed writing on this place.

Writing on a blog is different from just writing out problems in a diary. Writing on a blog is like shouting out problems in public and hoping someone gives a damn about them whereas writing in a diary is just like crying to a mirror. Usual there's no reply to the problems but sometimes someone out there has time and gives sympathy.

So now it's time again to spill my disgusting, smelly guts to the world and hope someone will shout at me to pick them up.


Lately I've been a spoil brat. Wanting my cake and wolfing it down. I know it's due to sadness and frustration I feel in life though. I used to keep it to myself and let it simmer inside of me until it's all evaporated but now I like to release it out. Anger's very addictive and I'm scared I'll be addicted to it forever.

Okay the last paragraph is confusing but I'll try to explain somehow. Whenever I'm angry now I like to lash out my feelings to others, myself and things around me. I hurt people along the way but at the time I don't care. Regret starts seeping in though when I start to realize my faults. Sometimes we say things we don't mean.

I really try my best to be a nice person. I really do. But it's hard to balance being nice and being a pushover.
I don't want to be bullied.
But I want to be nice.

It's very conflicting and confusing I know and it's impossible to find a line to separate them both. I just hope what I do is right and what I've done wrong can be corrected.

To anyone reading this:
From the bottom of my heart, I sincerely apologize if I have insulted, offended, put you down or have hurt your feelings terribly before. If it's extreme hurt you've felt from me, I'm sorry, because no one deserve that kind of treatment no matter what they've done.  Some time in the heat of the moment we do or say things we don't mean. I can't change the past but I can hope for the future.



P/S: Just wanted to let some things out. It's been eating at my heart recently.

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Exams over but no transportation to go out... Too sad to shout profanities even. Sigh.

oh god.

My life is a fucking mess. I do not know what the hell is happening to me but my inspiration, my motivation, my every piece of shit-fucking-will-to-live is absolutely gone.

I may not seem any different in my daily life but god my life is so messy now. I haven't done homework, studying, cleaning and bothering for ages.

I usually always get shit from my hypocritical family but maybe they've just gone too far. I've lost all motivation to care.

I need a holiday and I hope next week passes in a hurry. I desperately need some time to settle my thoughts and get on with my life.


“Life is thickly sown with thorns, and I know no other remedy than to pass quickly through them. The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us.”
-Voltaire


And so, to quickly pass my bloody misfortunes, I will. Fuck this shit. I WILL rearrange my life.

MJ and Darfur

First and foremost before anything, I would like to bid Michael J. goodbye. ='(
Wasn't that big a fan but I knew some of his songs since I was a kid and I gotta admit, those songs were pretty damn awesome.

Plus the guy holds the record for having the best selling album of all time. No one, and I mean NO ONE, has ever sold more than him for more than 20 years.

Sure the guy had a lot of accusations on him, but those until now are just accusations and aren't verified. Whatever he does in his personal life shouldn't affect his music at all.

And from me a big "FUCK YOU" to all those assholes who are making jokes about him even after he's dead. Let the poor guy rest in peace okay?

Makes me kinda sad to type this all in past tense.
R.I.P M.J. Say good riddance to all the bad media.

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Now for some crisis stuff. Maybe this is gibberish to y'all but I'm spreading the news. About Darfur.

Since 2003 Darfur has been put into an emergency state because of a war. The Darfur government has been committing genocide.

Genocide is, as the United Nations would define, acts committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnical, racial or religious group.

Hating on people just because of how they were born and not how they act is just being Hitler the 2nd. (Hitler committed genocide against jews btw if you're still living under that rock. Get ur ass out of it now.)

And how would you like it if your ethnic group was killed just because they weren't liked? Or if your religious group was killed just because they were following their faith?


Well I can't do much, I'm just one person afterall. But it would help if I spread the news since I kinda noticed some people still go ??? when they hear about Darfur


http://www.stopgenocidenow.org